Subterfuge

First of all, thank you to everyone that commented and reassured me that the spotting was (is) probably nothing. Although the spotting has continued (every.freaking.day), today is my last day of the birth control pills, so I am ready to gleefully usher in my full-on period. Of course, my body being the perverse being that she is, I fully expect to get no AF now that I am ready for it.

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This week, I am taking my last vacation of the summer. Actually, it is quite a hectic week. For the first half, we will be traveling with my dad and step-mom. Then, we will spend the weekend with my in-laws who will be watching our dog and who have a big Labor Day party every year. When we first planned this outing, my only thoughts were of fun, relaxation, and fitting everything in while still setting up my classroom. I completely forgot that I would not just be traveling with D, but also my meds.

Right now I am just on the Lupron, but it needs to be refrigerated.  The problem is neither my dad, nor D's family, knows that we are heading into IVF (or even that we are trying). Personally, I don't really want to tell either set. I think both would be thrilled for us - I am not worried about judgement or anything like that. It's just - how many people need to know?* If we were still doing it "naturally" I would certainly not say, "hey - I am ovulating this week. Mind if D and I excuse ourselves and get busy on the guest bed?"  Plus, there is something nice about having SOME people in this world who will hear about this child as complete surprise.  For D's parents, this is is the first grandchild. Throughout this whole process, telling them we are expecting is one of the biggest things I have been looking forward to; telling them that we are trying dims that a little for me. And of course,there's my fear that the IVF will not work and by telling less people, at least I've staved off some pity.

Therefore, I have been wracking my brain for ways to hide my meds. I've considered in a putting it in some kind of food container (like a tofu box - both sets of parents would steer clear like it was a nuclear warhead), but of course my fear is someone will accidentally throw it out. I could say it is a medication for something else, but my step-mom is a medical secretary, so I feel like I would be on pretty thin ice there. I've even considered just keeping it on ice packs in our room, but of course I am afraid that will somehow compromise this cycle, and I don't want to do anything else to jeopardize it (I learned my lesson from the late pill).

So for anyone that has gone through this - any ideas? Did you have any great disguises for your meds? Is there some infertility genius that has capitalized on this need and already marketed materials for this very purpose? Or am I just being crazy and should spill the beans? D is all for telling them. He feels the more prayers and support, the better.



*you know, besides my mom, that entire side of the family, my closest friends and the entire world wide web. It's amazing I have not taken out a billboard. But I think because it's because I have told so many people that my desire to have a secret from some important people is so strong.