I thought after my scare on friday, I could be more cool, calm and collected moving forward (why I thought I would have a personality transplant, I have no idea). Instead, I am still the same bundle of nerves I was, and am still worried my cycle will be cancelled or compromised. The only thing that has changed is my reason.
You see, on Friday when I had my first ultrasound, the nurse mentioned that there was fluid in my uterus. She was unconcerned and just told me it was more of my period to come (oh joy) and I could expect a pretty big bleed this weekend. Sure enough, on Saturday, after my sister's shower, I had some bright red blood when I wiped. "Perfect," I thought. I threw on a pad and prepared for my flow. Except, it never came. That one time was it. Still, I did not think it was a big deal (foolishly I thought it was lucky) and progressed happily with my weekend.
Fast forward to my ultrasound yesterday. The fluid, of course, was still there. The nurse asked if I was still bleeding and I told her I never did. This leads her to comment that she is concerned by the fluid. However, she did not expand, and later that day she called to explain my meds for the night, so I kind of forgot about it.
Until, that is, I was idlely doing work on the computer and got the idea to google. Why? WHY? But I did. And what I found does not look good. Fluid in the uterus has been shown to have a negative impact on implantation. Sometimes people have cycles cancelled because of it. Others proceed but it reduces your odds. D told me to ignore the internet, but I feel like it is valid research since the nurse said she was concerned (so it is not like I am making up that this could be an issue).
I know the moral of this story is that I have to just ask the nurse tomorrow what this means. But I hate to again be in an abnormal position. I swear, I am feeling like a fertility loser where things just keep going wrong one after the other. And I know I got saved on Friday, but I hope that was not just to trip over something else.
So, can anyone lift my spirits? Has anyone else had fluid that turned out to be no big deal?
Ugg. I can't help with the fluid part, but I'm here rooting for you! Yes, be sure to ask tomorrow. And maybe even ask the Dr vs. just getting the nurse's opinion. I know nurses are smaht cookies, but I feel like it's time for the big guns. You need some super-duper reassurance right now!
ReplyDeleteI am starting to feel slightly more confident. I am also starting to just say, "it is okay if I don't know everything". I was dying to know how big the eggs are, and what my lining is, but I decided maybe I am better not knowing. Maybe I need to step away from the google. Because if it is really bad, they will let me know (we will see how long this lasts!).
DeleteOh man, you are definitely not having a straight-forward cycle! I hope that you get some answers tomorrow! I'll be thinking about you...
ReplyDeleteI do feel like it has been very convoluted. Isn't having to do IVF enough? Why does there have to be stress along the way for other reasons too. I guess it just part of the "fun" of this journey!
DeleteI have no experience on this either, but just wanted to send some support your way. Let us know what happens...
ReplyDeleteThank you. Everyone's support really does make all the difference. I don't know how I would keep my sanity otherwise!
DeleteI rarely consult Dr. Google...for the very reason that he makes me insane with all kinds of different answers. Someone will say they had a healthy pregnancy after experiencing symptom X. Someone else will say they had to go on all kinds of meds because of symptom X. It just depends on the person so I trust my actual Dr. more than Dr. Google. Why make myself any more crazy than I already am? ;)
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