Sunday, September 30, 2012

Seeing Double




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And I can't believe it.

I am scared, more scared than I thought I would be with seeing this. I always envisioned doing a spontaneous touchdown dance when I finally got that second line, but instead I feel like I am holding the most precious of Faberge eggs on a tightrope. I am so aware of all the things that can still go wrong. I am petrified that the next test I take will be a blank one.

I know so many people would kill for that second line (myself included) so please please don't think me ungrateful. I am also happy and relieved and beyond anything else, hopeful. It is just that I am so afraid that it will get taken away.

But, as my mom said to me today: For today, this is real. For today, I have my second line.

Please please may it stick.

29 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness! That is awesome! Congratulations! When is your Beta?

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    1. Thank you! Tuesday. It cannot get here fast enough!

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  2. That is so so wonderful. It worked! Congratulations!

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    1. Thank you. I am still in disbelief. I am amassing quite the collection of pee sticks on my sink counter.

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  3. Akkk! When I read this I gasped, such a happy, happy gasp! Two lines!

    Stick baby stick. I am praying so hard for you! So very happy for you! :)

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  4. I've been watching you closely while I've been away- and it's been killing me that I haven't been able to post. But today, today is the best day of all of them! Congratulations a million times over.

    Infertility is devastating, sad, and lonely. But pregnancy is wrought with fear, anxiety, and... even more fear. Try, try, try to remember that this very well could work. Enjoy every minute of it and don't play the 'what if' game. TODAY YOU ARE PREGNANT!

    I'm beaming like a proud auntie over here. I'm absolutely over joyed for you my friend.

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    1. Thank you so much! I always miss when you are away -I think I have become co-dependent on your comments :)

      I really am just trying to take it one day at a time (or maybe one pee stick at a time...)

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    2. Haha. I know the feeling my friend. All too well. But don't worry, I'm not going anywhere!

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  5. Oh, I am so excited for you!! Sending so many thoughts and positive vibes. You are pregnant right now! Enjoy this!!! Praying the babes continue to grow grow grow!!!

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    1. You and me both! Thanks for the thoughts and encouragement!!

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  6. Yes, you are pregnant!!! Can't wait for the betas! I'll light a candle for you my friend.

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  7. Woohoo!! I know exactly how you feel upon seeing the second line show up. I was in total disbelief for several days. lol

    I know this can be a scary time, but try to enjoy it anyway.

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    1. It really is amazing how shocked I was. I did not even believe the first (several) sticks. I felt stupid because I know "a line is a line" but I felt surely that could not really be the case for me. Today I took a digital and that helped :)

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  8. How exciting! Congrats, all my positive vibes your way got a sucessful pregnancy!

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  9. Congratulations...so happy for you!!

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  10. Congrats! What a beautiful sight! The nerves are totally normal.

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    1. Isn't it? I stare at my collection of tests in awe and disbelief (and yes, still fear). But I do know nerves are normal and I am just trying to take it one day at a time.

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  11. Congratulations! Your mother is a wise woman.

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  12. OMG, congratulations on that second line! Aaahhhhhh! I'm so excited for you! And your mother is SO right. :)

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