I had my first beta today. Even though I have continued to get darker tests, and even a digital yesterday, I was so scared to go today. This is the "real deal" and even though they say false positives are near impossible, I certainly know chemical pregnancies are a very real thing.
Amazingly I did not really Google average beta for 14DPO. From reading everyone's blogs, I kind of felt that over 100 was my goal. With over 100, I could breathe a little easier. Not that I would be out of the woods, but just a tad more confident.
Instead, my beta is 84. Not so low that I am freaking out, but not high enough that I feel good about it either. I am consoling myself with the idea that really, it just needs to double, regardless of the number.
Repeat Beta is set for Thursday am. In the meantime, I figure I can either be Zen, or I can worry, and google, and retest. In case you have any doubts about which direction I am going...
Amazingly I did not really Google average beta for 14DPO. From reading everyone's blogs, I kind of felt that over 100 was my goal. With over 100, I could breathe a little easier. Not that I would be out of the woods, but just a tad more confident.
Instead, my beta is 84. Not so low that I am freaking out, but not high enough that I feel good about it either. I am consoling myself with the idea that really, it just needs to double, regardless of the number.
Repeat Beta is set for Thursday am. In the meantime, I figure I can either be Zen, or I can worry, and google, and retest. In case you have any doubts about which direction I am going...
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| Obsessed? Yes. But also relieved to see the lines getting darker. |
Praying for a beautiful doubled BETA on Thursday!!
ReplyDeleteThank you. Feeling better after lots of searching. Now it comes down to Thursday!
DeleteI think that's a good number!! Praying for an awesome second number!
ReplyDeleteThank you!! Me too :)
DeleteThose lines are definitely getting darker! Looking forward to another good number on Thursday!
ReplyDeleteOh honey- I've been trying to write to you all day because I know how anxious you are with that number. But my last pregnancy came in at 53.06 on 14DPO. And though I didn't make it past 8 weeks, it had NOTHING to do with my low beta. I know how scary it is, but all you care about is that it doubles. Make it your mantra every time you find yourself slipping into negative thought. I will be doing it right along side you.
ReplyDeleteI'm no expert but that looks like a great number to me!
ReplyDeleteAnd I think it's impossible not to worry about a positive beta once you have traversed the land of IF. Prayers for that beta to grow stronger every day!