Unresolved ... update

So I got Dr. O on the phone. She seemed to feel it could be from the "missed" pill (although I still call shennanigans...it was 5 hours later than usual; that just happened to be the next day. If I normally took the pill at 1pm and took it at 6pm instead, would that still be missed? But I digress....)

Anyhow, she seems unconcerned. She said I may spot, and then, when I stop the pill, I may get nothing. But the important thing is that as long as I keep taking the bcp and the lupron, hormonally we are still setting everything up for how it should be. So as far as she could see, for now, we are still on!

Whew. I think I took my first normal breath. Of course, if this turns into a full flow, I might call her back. But for now, I am trying to think positively!

Nervous

So, tmi (as if everything in this blog I guess), I just wiped and had brown spotting.

Logically, I know that it is probably from the mock transfer yesterday (I had some bleeding afterwards which they said could happen). But of course, I am paranoid it's because I forgot to take my birth control pill yesterday until I remembered at 3am this morning (and by "remembered" I mean woke up panicked from a deep sleep) and now my period is coming. If my period comes, this whole cycle has to be cancelled.

Of course, only time will tell. I am supposed to start the lupron tomorrow so i will call the nurse if there is still anything there in the morning.

Ugh, why do I think I can kiss tonight's good night sleep goodbye?