Thursday, August 23, 2012


So I was hoping to post a whole, "silly me, I am such an over-reactor, it's crazy what our minds do alone at night" kind of post this morning. Even me, who always expects the worst, was not fully expecting the spotting to continue this morning.

But it has. And it has gotten redder and heavier. Still only when I wipe, but it can sustain several wipes (I will pause for a mental eeeeew).

And I am freaking out. I called the answering service this morning because I was not sure what this means (if anything) and did not want to start the lurpon in case I need to make this cycle a wash (because I would still want to try naturally or do injectibles). The non-helpful on call doctor said I should start the lupron, and if the cycle is a no-go, they will find out when they do bloodwork / us on the 7th. Oh sure, let me inject myself for the next two weeks for no purpose. No big deal or time lost to me.

Again, over and over, I am telling myself there is no reason it should be my period. Back in my younger days, when I thought I needed birth control (haha), I would occasionally miss a pill for an entire 24 hours and never get my period or spot. So why would I now? And besides the mock transfer, they did roughly use the wand for about half an hour. However, what scares me is that, although I spotted Tuesday after the wand, it had stopped until last night. And why is it getting redder?

I have a call into my nurse, so hopefully she will call me back. Until then, I am going to continue to worry.

You know, I knew I sucked at getting pregnant. Who knew it was equally as hard just trying to take birth control.


  1. Shit on it. I am hoping along right with you that this is NOT your period. I agree that your nurse is the best person to talk to. I'm not knowledgeable in this area, but do you think some b/w NOW would produce some answers? I just struggle to wrap my head around how one missed pill could do this.

  2. What a pain. Sorry it's stressing you out. My body never does what it's supposed to do. Natural and even synthetic hormones can barely make it behave, so I feel you. I hope you get some answers quickly, and that this isn't your period!

  3. Hi there! I'm a little behind on my blog reading from a crazy weekend last weekend and then not feeling well for a few days. But I'm still here reading and supporting you!

    Sorry you had such a crappy day. I'm looking forward to reading your other posts and catching up and hopefully hearing some good news. : )

    1. Thanks for catching up and for the support!! I am still not going to breathe easily until my appointment on Friday. Having had cycles cancelled twice before they've even started I am so gun shy. But hopefully it will all be a go and good news will continue to flow!