So I was hoping to post a whole, "silly me, I am such an over-reactor, it's crazy what our minds do alone at night" kind of post this morning. Even me, who always expects the worst, was not fully expecting the spotting to continue this morning.
But it has. And it has gotten redder and heavier. Still only when I wipe, but it can sustain several wipes (I will pause for a mental eeeeew).
And I am freaking out. I called the answering service this morning because I was not sure what this means (if anything) and did not want to start the lurpon in case I need to make this cycle a wash (because I would still want to try naturally or do injectibles). The non-helpful on call doctor said I should start the lupron, and if the cycle is a no-go, they will find out when they do bloodwork / us on the 7th. Oh sure, let me inject myself for the next two weeks for no purpose. No big deal or time lost to me.
Again, over and over, I am telling myself there is no reason it should be my period. Back in my younger days, when I thought I needed birth control (haha), I would occasionally miss a pill for an entire 24 hours and never get my period or spot. So why would I now? And besides the mock transfer, they did roughly use the wand for about half an hour. However, what scares me is that, although I spotted Tuesday after the wand, it had stopped until last night. And why is it getting redder?
I have a call into my nurse, so hopefully she will call me back. Until then, I am going to continue to worry.
You know, I knew I sucked at getting pregnant. Who knew it was equally as hard just trying to take birth control.