That pretty much sums up how I am feeling today.
Went back for my follow up. One of my follies is up to an 18, none of the others made the cut. My lining has actually gotten thinner and is down to a 6 from a 6.2 (I did not even think it could do that!?), but apparently is "good enough". So we are going ahead with an iui on Sunday. But with just one egg like always and thinner lining than ever, it's hard to muster up a lot of excitement. Yes, I am lucky to have an egg and luckier that I get to ovulate, but with nothing different (for the better), how can I have any hope it will work?
But on that same token, millions of people are playing in today's powerball, all of whom have worse odds of winning than I do of getting pregnant (god I hope that is statistically true). Yet, someone will win. So I guess I just need suspend my disbelief and jump in the game. Because, as the lottery says ... hey, you never know.
What is it that they say? "The definition of stupid is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result". But that's NOT true with IF. You can have the exact same circumstances and you could get a *very* different result. You may not be hopeful, and in that case- I will be hopeful for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks...right now I'm still pleasantly numb, but I am sure that hope will work its way in somehow in the next two weeks.
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